A Letter to Her.

To our future hero…

If you are reading this, chances are, you are considering doing the most amazing, unselfish act of kindness that a woman could do. Thank you for even considering this process. You are a brave, beautiful, strong, mother, and I know already that your heart is made of gold. I have prayed for you for a couple of years. I have prayed that you are doing this for the right reasons and that God knows what he’s doing when he matches us. I have prayed every day for you.

To be honest with you, at one point in this journey, my biggest fear was not being able to carry our baby. I wanted to feel that so badly. I wanted to experience that bond. I want to be able to relate to every other woman who has gotten the opportunity to be pregnant. I want to experience labor. But, through many trials, I have realized, this may not be my path. Sometimes in life when one path keeps beating you up, you start to think of another path. The longer the one strikes you down, the more attractive the other road sounds. I started to think of my end goal, and stopped obsessing over being pregnant and getting a positive pregnancy test. I started to be more open to other alternatives. I prayed so much about this. And, here we are, ready to move forward to find you. If you are willing to do this, I could have everything I have ever dreamed of. I will be a mommy.

Sometimes I cry just thinking about you and how amazing you must be to consider doing this for a stranger. Thank you. Thank you is not even enough. I honestly don’t know what is enough to ever thank someone for carrying your child. I pray that you are the turning point to our struggle.  I promise to you, to always take care of this child that you bring to us. This baby is already loved so much. You will forever have a little piece of my heart and the world will know my appreciation for you. Thank you for giving us a chance. You are one sweet soul. I will continue praying for you daily. You are a godsend. And, you make my heart smile more than I thought possible. Thank you for giving our family a chance. We can’t wait for this journey with you!!

ashley

6 thoughts on “A Letter to Her.

  1. Betsy

    Ashley.
    This is beautiful. Any Gestational Carrier that carries your child will be blessed to gain a friend like you. Love Betsy

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  2. Lauren

    Hi there, Just stumbled across your blog. I have a similar story. Miscarried in August 2014. Had D&C and now have lining issues. 😦 I’ve done several transfers with no luck, and am not contemplating using a gestational carrier. I am looking forward to reading about your journey and wish you the very best!

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